Again I confront my astounding ability to pace. Back and forth, back and forth. So many
vantage points, and yet I still can’t see the whole picture. Maybe that is because I am looking
around, instead of within. As a
yogi I know that what I need to see most, lies within.
In the last few months (has it already been three?) since
information surfaced that John Friend, the founder of Anusara yoga, the style
of yoga that I practice and am trained to teach, had acted in ways that went
far beyond the boundaries of my personal values and ethics, I have been
pacing. I am now prepared to stop
and be still. I have used the
fullness of my academic and personal life as a way to deflect the necessary. I need to be with this.
Strangely, and somewhat expectedly, since in my 30’s I have
begun to know my ways-and catch them-so much better, I realize as I write this
that I already know what I need to know.
The truth of my heart is clear to me. Now, it is making decisions in alignment with that knowing,
and going through the process of change, and hopefully transformation.
More to come, very soon, as I bring what I see on the inside
out.
