It's been a long time.

I haven't looked at this site in well over a year. Wow. I remember watching those petals sweep through my doorway. That was a wonderful time in my life, I was just really beginning to look outside the window of my inner life and see what was outside.

I live in a different house now. The trees aren't blossoming yet, and they shouldn't be. It's January and it feels like everything is going to burst forth too early. The bulbs in my yard have already bloomed. And like Nature, I am feeling confused. There is this big push forward, and at the same time, an awareness of where I stand. Or at least where I think I stand. Like knowing it's winter, even though it feels like spring.

I've followed the path of my heart, yes, but I haven't yet completely learned to trust it. To trust me. To surrender my fear and make choices that take me beyond the edge of what I can see. It is a big world, and while I have learned to look out of my own little window, I am just at the cusp of really beginning to see the whole world with my heart. It daunting. And I believe, like this radical fast-forward into spring, that I am preparing for the opening.